I received a notification on one of my posts. Of course, I went to see which one, and since it was a MHM and I’ve been struggling with those this month, I took a minute to read it. It was this one–MHM: Time. As I read it, I immediately noticed that it could have been written this week. While Rosh Hashanah isn’t for a couple of more weeks, Tomie de Paola’s birthday was indeed last weekend. I thought about how apropos this post is to my current circumstance. Perhaps it’s the time of year: Back to School, Rosh Hashanah, Yom Kippur, and this year: Cursillo weekend and starting a new job (yes, you read that right!)

September is also Suicide Prevention Awareness Month, and I’ve been wanting to bring it to your attention but haven’t been able to sit down and write about it.

The notification from sammichristopher (thank you!) reminded me that time will still pass and some things won’t get done in the space I’ve planned for them. That’s why I rely so much on lists and calendars, and reminders. In the case of this website, there is always more time. Things can be paused and waited on, and the gravity will not collapse and the world will not stop spinning. In fact, most of the time, no one will notice except me, and I need to just calm the eff down!

Take some time for yourself today and tomorrow.

And even the next day.

I plan to gather what I can for the Cursillo weekend and mail out those important papers, and drive from Aldi to Aldi searching for the compression socks my doctor wants me to start wearing, but first: breakfast, a strong cup of tea, a chapter of a book, and a deep breath, and then the day can go on.

If you or anyone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, know that there are resources out there: Call the Crisis Hotline at 988, and talk to someone; get the help you need. Take a step back and take care of yourself.